booorrrreeeeedddd

i have decided to create this blog because it is 1:49 am and i am really really bored and i also cannot fall asleep so i guess i'm talking about my boring day lol. school started recently but it hasn't change that much for me since i started online school last year due to social anxiety because i'm a chud. today i went with my mom to get pizza while my little brother was at school since i didn't have any work to so yay even though i had to pay for my own food :( . i also finalllyyy started watching hannibal yesterday and i'm really liking it so far, i already knew i would like it just cause of the intersection of like the ethel cain, yellowjackets, iwtv, southern gothic thing idk. another thing i've really been enjoying recently is jirai kei fashion !! the other day i put together my first jirai kei "inspired" outfit, the word inspired is very important there because it's not really jirai kei, the pictures at the end. <3 im still saving up my money instead of just hopping into the fashion style and wasting all my money on something i've never done before. i probably would have already bought contacts but my mom wont let me, the first time i asked her she said yes but when i finally got my own money she told me that i "shouldn't be changing my appearance" and now she's telling me im too young (16??) and i need to wait till i'm 18.  unrelated but my mom actually has something going on, i love her but she thinks the moon landing was faked and taxidermy "involves witch craft and invites the enemy into your home." what the hell sure man i don't even know ??.. but back on topic i would have contacts to do the makeup but i don't cause i'm not aloud. i've still been practicing the makeup though. a song i've just started listening too or rediscovered recently is runnin free by nicole dollanganger, i started listening to her near the end of 2024 but i never really paid attention to the song until now it's really beautiful and on the unlikely chance that another person is reading this, please please feel encouraged to listen too it. <3 

(also idk what im doing in the gif lmao)